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Finding Purpose In Pain

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A loud pop and the sensation of a whip hitting the back of my leg sent me to the floor like a sack of potatoes. When I reached down to my ankle I found a gap in my formerly taught Achilles’ tendon. 10 days later I’m stuck in bed after surgery. I am surrounded by a plethora of medication on my nightstand and pile of pillows under my leg. I have also begun the painful process of being surrounded by nothingness.

I’ve already grown weary of netflix, and I struggle reading when my pain meds are coursing through my body. One of my heroes from afar suggested creating something new each day to maintain a sense of accomplishment; so I will write. Perhaps my self inflicted therapy will encourage others who are feeling trapped in a pain induced prison.

As a pastor I have walked alongside many people enduring great physical pain, but I have lived a relatively pain free life. I’ve broken the occasional bone and had minor stitches over the years, but nothing compares to the pain I am currently experiencing. In the midst of recovery I am realizing the emotional toll that physical pain brings. Throbbing pain. Stuck in bed. Helplessness. For over a week I let my pain dictate my mood, but I woke up this morning with one thought — I don’t want to waste this pain.

As tempting as it may be to simply endure the silent depression I’ve chosen to re-pray for those people in my life who are living with chronic pain. I don’t want to waste a moment of my pain and the sympathy it is gifting me for the plights of others. This exercise of re-praying is giving purpose to my pain. This purpose is leading me toward gratitude for others and lifting my spirit in the process.

Pain is simply a type of fuel. It can fuel pity, depression, and self-centeredness or it can fuel sympathy and gratitude.

Today I am choosing to be thankful for pain that leads to prayer. Today I am choosing to be thankful for pain that leads to healing. I pray I choose the same tomorrow.

Are you going through a season of pain? How can I pray for you?

Have you navigated painful recovery in your life? I’d love to hear what helped you through.


2 responses to “Finding Purpose In Pain”

  1. Bruce Reigner

    I’ve been thinking about you and praying. I have been going through a long time of chronic pain since December of 2017. I had bi-lateral hernia repair surgery in April and to this day I’m still trying to recover, i have 2 nerves that are entrapped. There are days it is difficult to walk and move around. I’ve been in Therapy and it seems like I’m not getting better. About 3 weeks ago I had bleeding and more pain. They don’t know why I’m bleeding, but I’m hanging in there.

    1. Wow. I’ll put you on my prayer list brother. Hope to see healing some soon


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